living the dead breathing the air i might be happy on the outside but inside im dieing craving to live! im ruined ! theres no life without being happy so y live?thats the question i will answer on my own. i dont want to live so y should i? i think about leaving my few friends behind and how sad life would be without them! but then i look at that they are just like the others! whoever said friendship is forever is so wrong b/c it isnt not even close! i dont have a true friend and i dont have a true life ..this life u say i have isnt life life is were ur happy and things are good and cheerfull! look at me i want to kill 3 ppl! i drive myself crazy thinking about myself! nobody cares! everyone lies! lies i swear they ruin things look at me they ruined me! u cant trust anyone they turn on as fast as u can say friendship! trust me i no ..ppl use things against me! nobody has a true friend unless they no they would always be there and always pick u over everyone! and nobodys like that so y try and find them!Relationships are just friendships gone bad! If u think u found the one true love, look again...ask urself the question why..why do u love them? why are u with them? then rethink the marriage and children! is life suppost to be hell? i thought thats were we went wen we died! but im living it here and now! why does life go this way? why why me? i didnt do anything to desvier this!! im caring and loving! nobody understands that! i do care! i do love! why do ppl think this way y are they so crazy..or maybe im the crazy one!? who knows! nobody does!! friendship is the worst thing u can have! i mean it hurts so much wen the person u thought loved u turns on u! why would u want sumthing like that? but on the other hand who wants to live a life lonely? these questions i ask myself everyday! and never get an answer! i wish i could b/c i would like to live and love again! but instead i sit thinking about how i can kill myself! is that life? i dont think it is!! i think thats pathetic!! I have the ppl i love to thank for the pain i went threw! everyone of them EVERYONE has done sumthing to ruin my life! the ppl i think love me dont! now i cant trust anyone! look what everyone has done to me! i hate crying myself to sleep and never having a good day. as everyone else thinks about the wonderfull day they are going to have ..i think about killing myself and others! and about how i had a horrible day and the next will be too! think about living life without anyone just ppl that turn on u! and make u suffer! why do i live? i dont im dead inside and life isnt life without being happy.right?

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